The Road to Skinny … Wanting it all NOW

When I make a decision that something needs to change,  I want it all to happen now. Right now.

Why is waiting so hard? It took  me almost 40 years to get me to the place that I’m at today. I guess I shouldn’t expect everything to change over night, but I sure wish they would. Truthfully, there are many things that I’m wishing for right now.

I wish that I liked vegetables more than cake. I wish that water tasted like Coke Zero. I wish that watching Reality TV shows counted as exercise. I wish that I could convince my willpower that it was just as strong as the words I speak. I wish that I felt more comfortable in my own skin. I wish that I could fall asleep and wake up skinny. I wish that I wasn’t such a wussy, whiny baby.

But wishing really won’t get me too far, so instead, I’m choosing to be thankful. I’m thankful that my brain is finally in a good place. I’m thankful that my health is getting better everyday. I’m thankful that I’ve figured out what I’m allergic to. (Even though I miss wheat more than words can explain). I’m thankful for my wonderful family, good friends and for change that is fueled by hope. I’m thankful that old thoughts patterns are being replaced with new ones. I’m thankful for this journey.

I will continue pressing forward, eating better, feeling better and wanting more. As I continue on, I will pray for patience and trust that I already have it within me. I will get there … I will become what I know I am.

Thanks for listening to me whine and complain. It felt really good, and now I can move on to something better.  🙂

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2 thoughts on “The Road to Skinny … Wanting it all NOW

  1. Becky Jones January 23, 2012 at 3:54 am Reply

    Whine away!!! It is HARD and I wish those same things. I would love to tell you that it is easier once you lose the weight but it isn’t. You are doing great! Patience is hard but I lost 50% of myself in just less than a year so it is possible to lose it fast but it takes tons of hard work and having time to exercise. It will happen sooner than you think!

  2. Shandra January 23, 2012 at 6:54 am Reply

    Oh friend, I love reading your stuff. You are doing amazing, and more than anything I’m so happy you are feeling better. That makes my heart sing!! 🙂 Don’t say it … love ya!

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