…well, truth be told, I suck at taking care of myself. I’ve got great intentions, and a fine plan in place, but my follow through sucks. Really sucks.
I hate pretty much all vegetables and really like chips. I enjoy TV and playing on my computer a whole lot more than I like going for a walk. I forget to eat until I’m starving, and it’s usually midnight when I remember to eat something. I’ve got issues … big fat butt causing issues.
But, I’m willing to give this whole “get
skinny healthy thing” one more try and I know that this time, it’s going to stick. I can feel it in my bones … that’s a good thing right?
I’ve already done some things this time that I’ve never done before, and I can say without question, they’ve put my head in a different place.
I let my husband take before pictures of me. Not in a bikini, because frankly that’s just all kinds of wrong but in shorts and a tank top. I can say without question, that sucked a lot. But I can also tell you when I saw the pictures, it was shocking. What I saw in the pictures is NOT AT ALL what I see when I look in a mirror. Not at all. Why is that exactly? Why don’t I see what pictures show? I don’t get it.
I let my husband take my measurements. And again, that sucked, a lot. But I did it, and there’s now an actual record of the “before me”.
I weighed myself, and did NOT share that with my husband. It is written down for posterity and thankfully I’m still 30lbs less than my start weight, but nowhere near where I got to before. So annoying.
I’ve set alarms in my cellphone to remind me to take my vitamins and medications that I continually forget to take and then question why I feel like crap all the time.
I’ve let my husband make me an exercise plan, and I’m actually doing it. I absolutely hate it, but I’m doing it. I’m hopeful that the “you’ll start to love exercise” feelings kick in a lot sooner than later, because I am SO not feeling them now.
Thankfully, my group weight loss challenge started today, which means I’ve got a huge support system in place. My heads in a great space, and I need to do this. I am going to do this.
Today is Day Number One. It’s the first day of something awesome.
*If you want to read more of my weight loss journey … check out “the road to skinny” section in this blog.